Glad You Are Gone

I am here.
Don't pretend that I do not exist.
Because I am still breathing.
Life has taught me many things since you have been gone.
I'm glad you are gone.
I never needed your problems and you never needed mine.
If you would have been there for me for one second;
instead of bitching at me for my feelings and opinions, maybe I wouldn't have told you something hurtful.
You deserved it.
I cannot help myself when I am lonely.
I always want someone there to care for me.
Were you there every time I needed you?
You stood in the shadows pretending not to watch.
How dare you.
How can you say I love you when you don't even mean it.
Well I'm glad you left me.
It made me realize what a true bastard you were.
And I guess you realized what a true bitch I am.
I'm not though.
If you would have took the time to see how I work.
You envious little boy.
Grow up.
You may be older, but you are still younger in the mind.
Stop being so childish over these things.

Sincerely,
Brooke

Not Forgotten

I remember you.
But do you remember me?
Though times got rough between us.
I never forgot, nor did I want to.
I forget the fights and I forget the mistakes we both made,
but I never forgot your smile.
What if things were different?
Why did we give up?
Was it the right thing to do?
I'm not sure anymore.
We all live though and we all feel.
Can things change?
Of course they can.
Do you want them to change?
I'm not sure.
I want them to though.
I can't read your mind so you must talk to me.
Things can change.
Only if you want them to.

Just Maybe

Your chances are running out.

I'm tired of waking up and you not being there.

You are the one making the plans.

You are the one who made promises.

But you break so many.

When you come looking for me,

I won't be here.

Because I have packed my things and left.

I cannot wait for you to figure out what you are doing.

Even though I have told you many times.

You look at me as this one girl you know.

But I am so much more than that.

You just don't see it.

I wish you did.

Because I already see the real you.

You just don't take the time to see the real me.

It is your decision though.

I came here looking for someone who could see me and not just look at me.

You were different.

I knew it.

But I can't sit here forever and just pray that one day you'll look at me the way I look at you.

You make me smile.

A real smile.

Not one that is put on to make others happy.

But now you just disappoint me.

I don't even believe the reasons you give me when you don't show up.

If they are true, that is pretty sad.

Because you do this so often.

So often that I usually know you won't be coming.

The door bell rang this morning...

And my heart raced.

I thought it was you.

Even if I had just woken up and was not ready...

I was hoping it was you.

But it wasn't.

At this point, I don't know what to think of you.

You know how to make me smile.

But you easily know how to make me frown.

Maybe one day you will wake up and remember who I was.

Who I was going to be.

Who I wanted to be with.

Right now though, you only see me as the girl with a dream.

Sparkles

I observed the sparkles in your eyes.
Beauty alone could not define what I saw.
For those out there who have not seen this master piece,
I promise you it is well worth a look.
Don't go in thinking it will be easy to find.
Time will be watching.
You will need to search deep.
Everything is in front of you.
Now find what you are looking for.
The beauty is in the things that we barely look at.
Just a little tip.
Forget about flaws.
Forget about mistakes.
Just remember that this beautiful life stands in front of you.
And it doesn't want you to look away.

Beautiful

If I could explain how beautiful life is,
I would have to start from the beginning.
The first little heart beat that leads into the first little kick...
Though I still sit here in shock, I wonder...
If some of us could change our biggest mistake... Would we?

It is an eye opening experience.
We learn from our mistakes but are some mistakes always going to keep us learning?
In rough times the thought of our mistakes reappear.
But there are some that will never disappear.
And later on when we are prepared... They will no longer be mistakes.
Yes, maybe it was a mistake to forget about something important.
But if we look at it now, we see how beautiful this little life is.
Although we cannot change what has happened to us, we change how we feel about it.

Spot Light

I've never felt more out of place.

As if I were some doll on the floor instead of in the case.

While I lie on the floor collecting dust,

You're in the spot light collecting lust.

The lights go dim and so do my eyes

You're still grinning and it's no surprise.

The current closes.

The crowd is throwing roses.

At the sight of your porcelain face.

Mistakes, Right, Wrong, and Left

I listen as much as I talk. I feel for those going through a rough time. I give them my best advice. There is always a bright side to even the darkest of days. Though we may not know it, someone out there will always care about us. When we are ready to realize that we have to find ourselves before we can find anyone else, we will be much happier. Sometimes life is going to put an obstacle in front of you. You have to decide how you will over come it. If we never made mistakes we wouldn't learn how to make things right. As people we never want to fall. But sometimes falling is a wake up call from reality. Without falling we don't know how to pick ourselves up again. Which we all need to do at times. There may not always be a person there to help you. Just learning to do these things makes you stronger. Emily Dickinson wrote Hope is a Thing With Feathers. To summarize the poem into a sentence, she was saying that hope will always be there in the roughest times. Never give up on yourself. We all make mistakes. Don't be embarrassed to be human. That's all we really are anyways.