Rewind. Restart.

I'm drowning...

But I have no one to blame but myself. 

I made it this way. 

Today was just a day set for failure. 

Sad thing is, I didn't even care. 

By the end of the day I was so ready for it... 

I think when you get to the point where you don't even care anymore... 

That's when it hurts the most. 

Because that's where I am. 

Today was just so horrible... 

I can't help but think how bad it turned out. 

Yes it was my attitude, yes it was my thoughts. 

I still didn't care. 

I'm losing progress with myself so fast. 

I'm wondering why is this depression ruining me?

I rarely have bad days... 

And when I do, it feels like the end of the world. 

Today would have to be one of those days... 

This entry isn't poetic or artistic or anything... 

Just me venting...

Because right now I don't know what else to do. 

My parents are trying to give me these "no you're doing this" sort of thing. 

Have they not woken up and seen who I am?

I can make my own decisions... 

And starting now, you will begin to see a better me...