Uprising Rain

I woke up refreshed from a dream that still lies on my pillow.
The world is at my finger tips and I grab it for adventure.

I'm discovering the world in different views and opinions every day.
And I don't wish to stop but to only capture a moment in time or two.

Life is filled with sunshine and rain...
I can't help but enjoy everything even though some brings different emotions to the table.

Some secrets, I've found...
Should be kept as secrets.

It's funny how one little secret can change a person.
But is it really funny?

I often wonder what really comes with wanting to share secrets...
When we can be the most selfish things on earth.

When the stars fall through the sky...
I can't help but gaze, just memorized by beauty.

And hope that one day...
Someone will see the same thing I do.

Destination Determined

I find myself waiting...
Waiting for the unexpected.

But also waiting for the calendar to change...
I need change.
And I know what I want.

My wings will soon be strong enough to fly on their own.
And I shall fly away to a place unknown for a little while.

I need to feel some different things.
And see things that are quite comforting, but that could be a little different.

What if this is my only chance?
What if my wings will only let me fly once?

Do I dare?

I pray...
That this try will be different...

That I will fly away and not fall...

But what if falling is what I'm supposed to do?
What if falling is the key to finding true happiness?

My hunger is turning into starvation.

I long for the thing that keeps my will power going...
Will I finally get it?

To be continued...

Tofu

In the past I lived...
Where the future was a newborn...
But I was still scared to see it grow up.
And take me with it.

With the lessons we have learned...
You would think we would learn to forgive and forget our problems...
But through time and through love you never learned.

I'm more beautiful than the sun set on the horizon...
I'm stronger than your heart and mind combined.

You're scared to bring the past to the present.
And I'm scared to leave the past behind and move on.

Just a little...

But with time I find myself wondering what could have been...
Or where your life has taken you.

Far beyond the dreams that lie on your pillow cases I hope.

My dreams?
They are being witnessed every day.
And those dreams are realities with every step I take.

Curiousity Strikes the Dark

I awoke to find myself alone.

Though my mind is always full of thoughts...
I awoke with nothing.

Still numb from my precious nightmares...
I looked out the window.

I dream of being someone...
But everyone is someone...

But what makes that someone a someone in everyones' eyes?

Today I will keep my mind at ease.
And watch the wind caress the leafs.

Forever being the same...
But forever changing.

Secrets.

The secrets I carry with me...
They are not worth telling...

But they are also not worth keeping.

Maybe we are supposed to stop and stare...
Just to really realize what is around us.

I wonder...

When we stop to look...
What are we really seeing?

Where It's too Dark for Light

Beneath the shadows I fill my mind with thoughts...

Day to day I wonder of life and love.
Questioning the progress of mine...
Seeing the progression of others...

Slowly slipping away from reality.
Into the deepest part of my soul.

Too far for light to travel...
Too dark for you to see...

In a world full of mistakes...
I find my inner beauty.

I keep fighting my fears.
And losing some well deserved battles...

But I live to see another day.
And I dream to live more dreams.

Dreams that have not been reached yet but almost...

I'm so close...

In the darkness I run...
Trying to find the nearest light...

Reaching for the nearest star...

Pulling dreams from the air and into my heart...
Where I know destiny will find them...

And I will achieve them all.

Salt and Simplicity

With the slightest breath I step into the ocean...

Washing away all my memories...
And all of my feelings...

Because some things are not worth remembering...
And some things are not worth feeling...

Drenched in salt and simplicity...

I've been wrapped in your symphony of lies.
A beautiful piece that has been broken.

A song worth singing until you know the true meaning.

But I still consider the options...

Will I let my heart walk on a thin line that's loose?

Or do I stand so gracefully on a bed of roses?

What if I were to tell you...
That I see more in you than I see in me.

Would you look at your life differently?
Or the same as it has been?

Mirrors are always on the walls...
I stop to find myself staring just to wish...

A wish that could stop the world for an hour.
And let me rule it.

I hold the key to my future...
But you are pushing the door closed...

Your eyes say more than your lips will ever dance to.

But I can't help but listen to the waltz of your imagination.

My imagination runs quickly through the field of tall grass...
Catching stars, and seeking dreams.

Never forgetting what lies behind me...

Always remembering what lies before me.

Island Built for One

Have I been exiled?

Why do I find that my echo only comes back to me?
The sun is sleeping in the distance...

And I can't figure out where I am...
Or even who I am.

You lost me at hello.
And I found myself when we said goodbye.

I have learned lessons that are not worth repeating...
I've kissed lies from a mouth not worth speaking...

How do you manage to keep me alive on an island built for one?

I've seen more rain storms than I have sunshine.
I've heard more cries than laughter.

And yet I feel safe...
All alone with only an echo and an island.

You try so hard to be different...
When in my heart I knew you were a kidnapper also.

You kidnapped me to this island built for one.

I pace back and forth...
Wondering when you will return.

Have you stranded me forever?
Or am I waiting for a rescue boat?

Swallowed Up by the Wind

Are we ready to let the rain fall?
And are we ready to figure each other out?

The wind swallows my fear, my questions...
But where will they go?

Do they travel to far away places...
Where the sky is bright while I look into darkness?

The clouds look like they were colored with crayons.
If I don't come home tonight...
I've found something worth fighting for.

Maybe far away...
Away from what I'm used to.

Out of my comfort zone...

To a world I'm ready to see.

And I will change it.
While it changes me...

People are staring...
And I can't help but smile.

I wonder why that is.

Is it because I gaze into the sunset,
not knowing what is there...

But curious to know what there could be?

The Roots We Know So Well

I find myself in between the cross roads...
Questioning the existence of a future...
The death of a so called past...

Fear has always been an enemy...
But it lives so close.

My mind has always been filled with more questions than answers.
But my heart knows more answers than anything else.

I struggle with the fact of them both...
Who will win the battle?
Who will win the war?

I don't settle at any rate...

Always changing...
Like the weather in an unhealthy place.

Sometimes it's wanted...
Sometimes we pray for it to leave.

What if life is just a ride?

It's supposed to be enjoyable...
It's supposed to be bumpy...

Are we afraid of reaching great heights?
Or are we scared that we will never come back?

Do our roots still live in the depths of our souls?
Or are we forever changing...
Forever growing...