There's a Pink Elephant in the Room

I still feel like there is something else you are not telling me.
Like there's this big pink elephant in the room.
And only you and I can see him.

You don't tell me he is there.
You think I don't notice.
But I do.

Just tell me.
I'm here to listen.
I'm your best friend...

So please just tell me what is going on.
I feel like there is something more here.
Just like that pink elephant.

He's huge but quiet.
And you just ignore him.
But I want to know.

And I want to know now.
So if anything is wrong...
I can fix it.

I may be petite,
but I can do so much more than you think I can.
So let me help you.

My best friend...
Who I love with all my heart.
Just tell me.

Please...

Periodic Table of Emotions

With a thought in my mind I took a chance.
I was wrong before.

Maybe I was looking too closely.
Maybe I wasn't looking close enough...


As people we can only take chances.
What do we have to lose?

Memories are always being made.
Laughter is always being shared.

Time can slow down or speed up in the blink of an eye...

I wonder what this will lead to.
But I'm not going to sit up and think about it...

Let chemistry be made.
And we'll see the solution we come up with.

I'm glad you made me smile.
I needed it.

It's so refreshing.
I love it.

Don't stop.
Don't speed up.

Just take your time.

Breaking Walls of Existence

We all fall at some point.
I just haven't gotten back up yet.

I'm inching towards recovery though.
A fall like that can leave cuts and bruises.

Inside and out.

The world is full of beautiful things.
But do we stop to really look at them?

People are just as beautiful.
But do we give every one of them a chance?

If only...

I wish someone would give me a chance...
Existence is so important to us all.

I feel like I am slowly fading from this world.
Or maybe I'm falling into a different one.

My smile isn't perfect...
But don't make that an excuse not to talk to me.

Don't make any excuses not to talk to me.
Or anyone for that matter.

Don't stop here.
Keep moving forward.

Glance back once and a while.
See where life took you.

One day I will have someone...
I don't need someone right now...

But it is just a want...
Why?

I love being with someone.
I love when they hold my hand.
Or when they surprise me.

I'm lonely right now but I'll live.
Because that is all we should do until the end.

I'm thinking of this time as being more time to explore myself.
You should do the same.

Love will come when you least expect it.
I'm trying not to expect anything...

I'm finding it a little tough but I can do it.
If we put our minds to something, we can do it.

Always.

Talking Mannequins

You won't find someone real if you continue to be fake.
I've seen your work.

The sweet talk, the phone calls, and pet names...
I don't fall for it though.

I know better...

But there are so many girls out there who believe you.
And everyday you break someone's heart.

How does that make you feel?
Why do you do this?

We live in a world full of plastic.
And you are just as stiff...

Your insecurities...
You hide them well.

But you cannot hide them on a photo well enough.
Just be yourself.

You shouldn't care what people think of you.
Because once you do stop caring...

People will notice.
And maybe love will come out of it.

What have you really got to lose?
We all fail but most of us get up and try again.

Believe in second chances.
But not thirds or fourths.

I was willing to help you.
You kept pushing me away though.

So I'm done...
Until you can prove to me that you want to be helped.

Now do something...

An Amazing Regret

Give this story a proper setting.
I'm wondering if you ever deserved a chance in the first place.

When it comes down to it...
Were we right?

Just a girl looking to love.
Just a boy looking to fuck.

Is that how it was suppose to play out?
Because that is how I see it.

You were someone at some time.
To me that is...

But your chances shattered.
And there are no replacements.

We live and we learn.
Just like we move forward and not backward.

Maybe one day you will see what you could have had.
And maybe one day you will regret some decisions.

But I'm not going to care anymore.
I tried and tried to make us something.

To be honest...
I really wanted us to be something.

Because I thought you were amazing.
Now...

I see you as the guy I couldn't help but like...
Who tore my heart into pieces..

And never put them back together like they do in the movies.
Reality is a bitch.

And I am the fool who liked someone who could never like me back.

Lost in a Language

Every moment seems so shocking.
My thoughts are running in circles.

Is this really her?
Or is she exploring herself more?

I know she is exploring other people more...
God...

I want to be a best friend.
And I want to help her.

But how do you help someone who doesn't want it?
Or thinks she doesn't need it?

Every word being spoken is kept.
And I'm still praying she will forgive me for this.

What happened to the girl I used to know?
The girl who I would laugh with and dance with.
The girl who made time to shop and have dinner with me.

Where did she go?
And will she ever come back?

Please I'm begging you in advance to forgive me.

You Lost Me at Hello

My wings are torn.
And I'm finding it difficult to fly away.

Maybe I'm not supposed to just yet...
I'm waiting for the rain and my wings to heal.

My last battle took me far and hurt me badly.

I'm willing to forgive.
But not willing to bring it up again.

You will never know that this is about you.
I pick and choose.

I pick my inspiration.
And I choose how to write it.

Plain and simple.
Easy as can be.

For now...
I'm waiting.

No longer for you though.
You lost me at hello.

I'm sorry things didn't work out.
Everything can't though...

That's why I'm just inching forward.
I'm cautious.

Once upon a time I was caged with fear.
Now...

Slowly, I find myself becoming adventourous.
More open and willing.

I can't forget you though.
At one time you were someone to me.

But now I just remember your face and your name.
Other than that, I don't know.

I choose not to know.
Just because I can.

A Star Told Me So

What if I told you...
That the world is full of mystery?

Because it is...
But you are just as mysterious my dear.

Beyond your eyes are things I long to see.

Secrets, thoughts, opinons, and dreams.

I can only wait until you are ready to show them to me.

I've shown you my dreams and my fears.

But not my thoughts and secrets.

I'm not ready to share those...

What if I said....

That beyond the highest cloud lies my dreaming star?

It does.
And it was talking about you...

Ready or not that star may fall.
Or it may race.

Just like my heart when you are close to me.

Falling into a world unsure of its' fact and fiction.
But wanting to know what is there.

I'm scared and nervous.
Just like you.

Even though, you pretend not to be.
Which I do sometimes too.

But are we ready?

My dream is...
Because a star told me so.

Now I'm just waiting for you.

Movies Credits and Questions

I feel so helpless...

What can I do in a life other than mine?
I don't know where my life will take me.
Or where hers will take her.

But I know I don't want her there.
She told me to trust her.
And I do.

This is a balancing act...

This life is making reality far from reach.
Could this real?
Is this really what is going on?

I don't understand.
Do I want to?

My mind and my heart are battling.
Do I follow my mind in an effort to keep her safe?
Or do I follow my heart and let her find herself in this way?

I wonder why we look at the things in life we shouldn't.
Is it because we are told not to, that we do?
Or is it because we never had what is there?

Is she tasting reality?
Or is she tasting a man's fantasy?

Is this act a cry for help?
Or a cry for acceptance?

If only I could figure this out...
In limited amount of time...

Lost in a world full of beauty and mistakes.
Living with guilt or living with relief.
Loving someone who makes you yourself.

A Secret within a Secret

I'm questioning right and wrong.
I'm wonder if what I am doing will be right.

But I'm also wondering how she will react to this.
I want to save her.

I cannot live with the guilt if anything should happen.
She told me to keep this secret.

But this secret must be revealed.
Her life depends on it.
Even though she doesn't know it.

I'm praying that she will forgive me for
what I am about to do.

And in the end I hope she knows how much I love her.
Without my best friend I would be nothing.

There's crumbled up notebook paper
all around me.

Ideas are flowing.
And I can't find the words to say.

I must do this.
I care for her so much.

With tears in my eyes,
I will fight for her life.

Because there is no way
that I will let anything happen to her.

I pray to God...
Please let her know how much I love her.
And how much I care about her.

This situation is somewhat different than most...
But I'm ready to handle this.

Not only as a best friend,
but as an angel.

I'm protecting her.
Whether she wants me to or not.

A Hand Always Needs to be Held

I'm at the middle of this bridge.
Ready to jump into the clear water of society,
or fly into the sky and catch the stars I so longed to dream.

I day dream so often.
It must drive everyone around me insane.
I'm ready for the real world.

And I'm ready to meet new people.
I'm not saying everyone here is the same.
But they are somewhat similiar to each other.

Everyone should accept everyone.
We all have flaws and we all have things we are great at.
Flaws shouldn't stop us from talking or being friends with someone.

Flaws...
As I define them...
Are things that make us our own person.

Yes, some may be common among people.
But in the reality of it, we are still us.
We are still unique.

Why can't we figure out that we can help each other?
Helping people makes me feel so good inside.
Like I've accomplished something.

And I know the people I help can see the generosity in me.
They can see it in you as well.
Lend a helping hand.

Because sometimes we all need some help.

Calling All Magic Makers

I'm so surprised at myself.
I cannot believe that I feel this way about someone...
No longer do I feel insecure around him.
He makes me feel like I'm someone.

When we kissed...
I felt like it was a fairy tale.
It was just magical.
We have amazing chemistry.

I think about him often...
I miss him...
I'm just waiting for him to come back

and wrap his arms around me.

I'm thankful for someone giving me the time of day.
What do I see?
I see a boy who has so much love and passion in him,
that he shares it with me.

Passion for music alone got us here.
And we are walking that path into the future.
With laughter and dreams,
Smiles and hopes.
We are finding ourselves.
And we are also finding new things in each other.

Breath of Life

We have to remember how short life is...
At any given moment life can be taken.
Are we going to live everyday to the fullest?
Or do we live without a moment of gratefullness?

Just breathe...
Times are going to change.
And times are going to stay the same.
Just don't forget we have one life to live.

And falling in love...
That is one of life's greatest moments.
I can only wonder where life will lead me.
And how far it will take me into love.

An Endless Staircase

It seems like we haven't talked in years.
                                                             You are so close.
                                                                                          But yet you are still so far from me.
                                                                                                                                   Please come here.
                                                                                                               I miss you.
                                                            What we have... is something so real.
 And I can't but feel so amazing around you.
                                                                     You bring out the real me.
                                                                                                              The one I've been trying to find.
                                                                                        I'm falling for you.
                                            And I'm just ready to see you.
                 Please come back.
                                            I feel like I'm twisted inside.
                                                                              Like crazy stairs that just put you in every direction.
                                                       I'm curious, nervous, excited, and alive.
                                        All at once.
         Which way do I go?
                                         Up or down?

                                                               I sit here on these stairs...
                                                             Just waiting for you to come and walk with me.

Floating Wishes

You leave me with more questions than answers.

Somehow you know how to make me smile.
But I don't know if that's a good thing...

You make my heart jump.
Even when I think of you, I can't breathe.
How do you leave me breathless?

With time, I hope you will change your mind.
And maybe there will be time for me.
Hopefully...
Because you are someone I can see myself with.

When you're around...
I feel so beautiful.
I start to sing and dance again.
And for just a moment...
I feel so alive.

I'm wondering how I make you feel.
Do you see me differently than others?
Or am I just a girl...
Who has become so shy...
Who can't even smile without blushing.
How do you feel?
Are you alive?

Waiting...
               Wishing...
                               Believing...

A New Chapter

I'm not holding back.
Though I am over what we had,
I'm excited for what is to come.

I can't forget what you did to me.
But I'm willing to move forward.
Let's do it.

I feel so alive.
Don't you?
Freedom is near.

And we are so close to
tasting it.
It's unbelievable.

I'm hoping something will come
out of this.
I've changed and you have too.

Have we finally grown up?
Or are we just working together?
I'm curious.

We both took that first step...
And now we are creating a new relationship.
It's nice.

I'm glad we are talking again.
Though, I was the one neglecting you...
At first...

We both did some damage but we can
both repair it.
Which is what all people need to do.

We all need to just sit back and look at the bigger
picture.
We can fix anything.

We're just too stubborn sometimes.
But it is still managable.
Isn't it?

Eyes of Connection

Today was an amazing day.

A little girl I talk to told me
"to me you are like a big sister, because you give
me advice and you care."

It really made me think.

How many people have I influenced in life?

I hope I have influenced many.

Blogging to me is like having a secret identity.

Yes, I'm nervous of how people will react to what I write.

But I hope it is all inspiring...

All eye opening...

Anything.

We come into this world just wanting to be noticed and loved.

And isn't that what we get?

Wait For Me

Sometimes I wonder if I have lost all sense of being.
I used to be someone.
I think...
But now, I'm only someone to me.

That I know of.
But where is my knight in shining armor?
Can't he come save me from reality?

Never.
He can only bring it to me.

But I wonder where he is.

Is he close?
Or far?

I wonder what he looks like.
What he sounds like...

Fate.

Maybe that is what is keeping me from a relationship.
Maybe I'm supposed to wait if I want to fall in love.

I'm nervous, excited, anxious...

And I'm really wondering what love is like.

Could it be an ever lasting experience?
Or a fling?

Who knows.

But I feel like I'm ready for love.
I don't know why.

Maybe because everyone around me has someone.

And I have no one but myself.
For now...

Yet again I play the waiting game...

Definition Defined

I've watched the world come alive.
Between you and I,
I think we could make our own world.

Though I can't change the weather,
I can change how I look at things.
And so can you.

Beauty is defined in so many different ways.
But to me,
it is immortal.

It is something that can be seen,
heard, felt, tasted, smelled...
Anything.

Yet, with all the beauty in the world...
We still manage to use the word ugly.
What makes something ugly?

Is it because it looks different from
what we are used to?
Or because we just don't like it?

We can find the beauty in everything.
If we just took the time to look for it.
Not only in things, but in people.

Everyone is beautiful.
Not matter how many negative words there are...
We are beautiful to someone...

Untold Stories

The sun will rise and always set.
But, it is a moment to be shared.

This beautiful world needs shared moments.
Without them, where do the stories come from?

I often wonder...
What stories will I be telling?

I'm ready for adventure.
Even if it's just an hour away.



Someday I hope to explore a rainforest.
And sit at a cafe in Italy.

Or ride a camel to the pyramids in Egypt.
Anything to me, is really an adventure.



So are we ready as people to just make our lives an adventure?
Or will we let those future stories never get told?

An Unpredictable Beauty

If you look closely,
you'll see something beautiful.

Don't be scared.
Be ready.

Life is coming.
And life is going.

So do you live it?
Or let it live itself?

Look me in the eyes.
What do you see?

My mirror sees a girl with dreams.
Along with hopes and fears.

What do you fear?

What do you dream?

I'm so curious...

Aren't you?

Tell me more.

I want to know.

You fascinate me.

And leave me with curiousity.

Maybe that's why I want you.

Because you are unpredictable.

Surprises are my favorite.

And you always have them for me.

Are you ready for an adventure?

I am.

Let's make an adventure...

Let's be us.

The Butterfly Catcher

At this time...
I can't help but feel so shy.
Just around you.
I don't know why this is happening.

You give me butterflies still.
Even though I don't want them.
How do you do that?

I'm sorry I couldn't even say hi
to you today...
I knew that if I did,
I would blush.

I cannot control my blush.
I'm so embarrassed by them.
But you being around, makes me blush.

Could you be someone for me?
I hope...
Or maybe just another crush.

Stars of the Sea

Watch the stars.
Because I'm gazing up at them.
Hoping you are too.


I feel so alone in this world...
Until I realized maybe you are watching the sky also.
I will just keep looking.


Follow them to me.
Please...
I know it can be far.


But somewhat it can worth it.
So we can end this chapter and
start the next.

With you and I together.
With our hopes and dreams
out on the table.


I'm ready for wishes to come true.
Aren't you?


Look into my eyes.
Tell me what you see.


Can we go forward from here?
Or back into the stars of the sea?

If You Need Me, I'll Be Here

Open your eyes.
Can't you see what is right in front of you?

Maybe you're scared.

I know I am...

Do you see past the first glance?
Or do you see more than you want?
Eyes can hold more than secrets.
But mine hold so many.

Don't stop here.
You still have a journey in front of you.
So do I...

I'm curious to know how you see things...
How do you look at this?
What do you see?

I see beauty.
And I see what others may not.
Just give everything a chance.

And if you need me,

I'll be here.