What If

What if we never found love?
What if the world stopped turning?

There are so many "what if" questions out there.
Can we one day answer them all?

I find myself at a very awkward place.
Not knowing if I'm making the right decision.

But we will have to see.
He will have to watch.

Although I cannot change the weather,
I can change myself.

And I make decisions based on what I want.
But in reality... I don't know what I want.

Time is running out.
Days are being lost.

I sit here knowing where I want to be, but not knowing what I want to do.
I'm scared to be honest.

Maybe being scared is something to make us stronger.
Maybe we just need to have that little independence to make us who we want to be.
Maybe I'm just crazy.