Journey to Me

I've walked this road before.
Numerous times actually.
I know where I am.
I know where I came from.
But do I know where I'm going?


Not really.
It's like a new adventure.
Just like a new sunset.
It's never the same, it's always changing.


Kinda like me.
So here I am...
On a journey to find myself.

I've packed my eyes so I can see
the beautiful things that are in front of me.
I've also packed my heart along with everything else.


Why?
Because I care.
I love people.
And I love meeting new people.


I'm so excited to be here and finding the beauty within each day.

Chasing After Dreams

At last I am back where I should be.
I moved too far forward.
And that only knocked me down.
But if I move too far back...
I won't make any progress.

I'm taking it slow...
Maybe it will lead me somewhere beautiful.
Some things are full of surprises.
Others are those waiting for the right moment
to come into our lives.

But what is a surprise?
Is it that first time you fall in love?
Or the moment that took your breath away?
Could it be something as simple as a kiss?
Or could it be as out of reach as a star?

If we chase after dreams...
Will they finally let us catch them?

What do I have left to say...

I'm dreaming...
I'm hoping...
Wishing and believing...

Unexisting Fairy Tale

Maybe it's just not my time...
If you read these...
Can't you tell how I feel?

Like I'm lost in a world full of beauty and heart break.
I'm disappointed but at the same time... relieved.
Though I can't make someone happy right now,
I can make myself happy.
I guess...

I've kinda lost the natural instinct for it.
Just having someone there makes me feel so beautiful.
Without it, I'm back to being the girl with the nameless face.
No bright eyes.
No smile.
Nothing...

Some things I wish I didn't know...
Because not only did it make me think I had a single chance,
but I lost hope.
In the beat of a heart I lost what I thought I wanted.

Will my time ever come?
Or will I be someone praying for it to rain in the middle of a drought?
Wishing for something that will never come...
Dreaming for a fairy tale that doesn't even exists...
Hoping for someone to fall in love with me...

Look of Life

I've been searching...
And I think my search is coming to an end.
I've found me.
Now what do I do with myself?

Is it time to look for someone else?
Or do I keep exploring this beautiful world
around me until that person shows up?

I love life.
I love what beauty can be found in each day.
It just takes that little bit of time...

Not once have I not been grateful for a breath.
I want to show someone what beautiful things I have discovered in life.

Someone listen to me. 
Someone get ready to wake up smiling
and go to bed with the same smile.

Just like me.

What Happened to Her?

When I think of Halloween, I think of my childhood.
The days when we would go to the pumpkin patch...
Or the afternoons we would spend making our jack-o-lanterns.
I loved those times.
I loved being that little girl who wasn't afraid of what people thought of her.
The little girl who would wear ribbons in her hair and always have a smile on her face.
What happened to her?

She grew as tall as the flowers she picked.
But as she grew, she also lost things...
She lost her care free attitude.
Along with that ever lasting smile.
Once upon a time she wasn't afraid to grow up.
And now, she could not be more terrified.
All I can remember now is how happy I was being that little girl.
When we spent our nights watching the flames dance on the candles inside our pumpkins.
And standing in the street bare foot watching them come alive.
Although I miss being her...
I still am her.
Maybe a little bit more matured...
Maybe a little bit grown up...
But still happy...
Still being me.

Take the First Step

The stepping stones are there.
Now, I just have to get across them.
Still...
I'm scared I might fall in.
Not to the wrong crowd
or to peer pressure,
but love.
I don't know if I will be prepared for it.
But is anyone prepared to fall in love?
Never.

It comes when it wants to.
Does it ever leave?
Only if you let it.
Maybe I'm not ready but what good would that do?
It makes us whole.
Like that missing piece has finally found its' way back.

Back to Square One

So here we are...
Back to square one...
With a lot of  hope and a lot of day dreaming,
the reality set in and broke it all.
It wasn't my fault though.
Really, it was no one's.
People will believe what they want to believe.
And they see only what they want to see.

Sometimes it hurts to know that.
Sadly, few only see the world in color.
While the rest still see it in black and white.
I ask a simliar question then before...
Am I the key that is trying to unlock the wrong door?
Maybe...
Or maybe it was the right door but I was the wrong key.
Who knows...
And for now...
Who cares.