Reality or Creativity

When it comes to fashion, music, and food...
I think I know just about everything...

But...
When it comes to love...

Now that's a subject I have always struggled with.
Love is something no one can define.

But I still try to define it...

I think I have given up on love...
Or love has given up on me...

I live in this fantasy world thinking that my prince charming
will show up unannounced on my front door step.

Or that he will take a plane and surprise me...
Why do I want surprises?

I still live in that little fantasy world...
Where the guy of my dreams is creative in every way.

Is creativity in a relationship still alive?
Or should we be burying it with our broken hearts?

I've looked back at my past relationships...
Trying to figure out if there was even one thing that made me happy as a surprise...

I don't remember finding anything...

But I hope with the next, that he can be a reality.