Lost in a Language

Every moment seems so shocking.
My thoughts are running in circles.

Is this really her?
Or is she exploring herself more?

I know she is exploring other people more...
God...

I want to be a best friend.
And I want to help her.

But how do you help someone who doesn't want it?
Or thinks she doesn't need it?

Every word being spoken is kept.
And I'm still praying she will forgive me for this.

What happened to the girl I used to know?
The girl who I would laugh with and dance with.
The girl who made time to shop and have dinner with me.

Where did she go?
And will she ever come back?

Please I'm begging you in advance to forgive me.